As I take the deepest breath

so here i was sitting
thinking ponderous solutions
thoughts of a practical nature
strategems and conquerings
life and love lost
time gained
fights i have won and those defeated
bitterness everlasting
a distaste beyond
those who do not understand
the emotions that bind
entwine and suffocate
all to take a breath
sweet enough to numb the senses
dull for eternity
the end to all